Hello good pals of DA-
This is probably one of the toughest summers I have had. It seems like summer is passing on too fast, and while that is happening so are other life events that aren't that great. Still am trying to hang in there, it's been a rough year all in all. I was hoping that summer would be a good time for recovery and a good time to take care of things that I love such as art but alas I find myself more and more concerned about finding work, taking care of bills and what not compared to it. Don't get me wrong, I am not going to be giving up on art but sadly it has taken a bit of a step back thanks to life in general.
Well in some previous journal entries, I was about to be thrown out of my house but that has been postponed due to a family crisis. So I am not all too worried about that now, still would like to move out but it's taking longer than expected. I really don't know what to feel right now, I feel contentment, restless, and some other mixed/complicated emotions as of late. I guess like I said earlier, I feel like everything is going by too fast and there is not enough break time in between major issues that have come up. It literally has been one thing after the other for me.
Also I have felt a huge nostalgia trip recently while looking up old work on DA.
Some of my friends on DA and many others I haven't spoken to in a long time. Kind of made me sad especially after seeing some of the wonderful art they dedicated to me long ago. I guess I just want to get back into the swing of things on DA, even if it's just for this month and part of next month. I want to reconnect with people again, and feel like I am part of the community because lately I feel like I haven't been. DA was my home away from home, and I want to go back to it.
Birthday will be coming up the 15th and I will be turning 20. Yep, the big one. 20. I got mixed feelings about that to. I just hope this year my birthday ends up being a good one. I have to say it kind of sucks being an August baby because it's like HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NOW NEXT MONTH IS SCHOOL! I don't even want to think about college right now
I love it, but at the same time I hate it. Then again this is just community college. I hope the university turns out to have more in store for me.
I've been doing more paintings recently and trying to hone in some new skills. I've been writing whenever I get the time to since I got a ton of story ideas that hit me during the spring term at college. Plus trying to get better at comics is a plus. I draw dragons and other reptile stuff a lot but I am really dead set on trying to draw people more. I figure if I can get that down, then I am golden. Also it's a good challenge and I haven't really had one lately.
I don't mean to make anyone depressed with this. I am actually quite content right now, just hoping that all this mixed bag of emotions and what not is just a phase right now. I am sure things will get better; it just likes to take its sweet time.
Lastly, finally told my boyfriend of 5 years that I love anime guys. He is totally cool with it, and here I was balling my eyes out thinking the man was going to break up with me just because I happen to be in love with fictional men. I guess there is irony/humor for you
Here is the complete scenario:
BF: You need to finally come out with this secret you have been keeping from me for the last 5 years. Now tell me, do you or do you not love anime guys?
YES I DO!! I AM SORRY!! I KNOW ITS WEIRD BUT I CAN'T HELP IT!!
.that is it?! XD
Me: By the way, I am in love with Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez
There ya go, some humor on the side of this somewhat depressing journal entry. Anyhow, got to run but I hope to talk with you all again! And thank you to those of you who have been with me since day one.
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